WANNA KNOW A SECRET?…
I LOVE MY BODY! For all it is, all it does, and all it is becoming! BUT, it wasn’t always this way!
For years I hid my body, even when I was at my leanest I was too shy to even think about wearing a sports bra at the gym, nevermind to a crop top at a festival!
I used to hide my tummy because how could a personal trainer and nutritionist not always have visible abs?
I always wore leggings to the gym and felt embarrassed the moment I had to put on shorts. I had to fake tan to make myself feel leaner. I cried in front of the mirror countless times at the body staring back at me, grabbing at it, poking, prodding and wishing it was different.
Wishing my efforts in the kitchen, at the gym, in my life would actually reflect on my physical appearance… because that’s how I measured my worth.
Not the fact that I showed up and trained 6 x a week, not the fact that I was running my own business from 21 whilst still full time at University, not the fact that I was healthy, not the fact that I was surrounded by so much love and support…
No, my worthiness resided in the fact that I was “too fat” to wear a crop top.
Oh how things have changed!